“I WILL HEAL THEE OF THEY
WOUNDS”
We were camping and getting ready to go swimming.
I was 13 and in the tent changing into my bikini. I started to pull up the
straps of my top when my dad opened the flap. “Get out!” I screamed. He snapped
back, “You haven’t got anything anyway.” I was devastated. How could he say
such a thing? I had a pretty nice body for a 13-year old,
but his degrading comeback hit me like a hammer. He
dropped the flap down quickly and left. The End. For him maybe, but not for me.
The words cut deep. “You
haven’t got anything” is what I heard and what I believed about myself for
years. I felt like I could never be good enough, that my dad thought I was ugly
and unworthy of love. So I saw myself that way. My teenage years were horrible.
The seeds of rejection and self-hatred had developed deep roots in my young
soul.
The most hurtful problems
in our adult lives often come because we have experienced devastating things in
the past and the results have rooted themselves deeply within us. They make us
think, speak, and act in ways that aren’t even appropriate to the current
situations. But something triggers a connection to the past and we react in the
way we did back then. We need to get free of these old hurts and deep wounds.
Jeremiah gives us God’s word on this: “For I will restore
health unto thee, and I will heal thee of thy wounds, saith the Lord; because they called thee an Outcast,
saying, ‘This is Zion, whom no man seeketh after’” (Jer. 30:17).
Jesus said, “And you shall
know the truth, and the truth shall make you free” (John 8:32). The Greek word
for “know” in this scripture is ginosko and
it means to “know absolutely, to be sure of, to understand and be resolved.”
Our past horrific and hurtful experiences
and their results need to be once and for all resolved and put in their proper
place, where they no longer are a part of our present day life. So how do we
facilitate that happening?
To annihilate the clinging
noose of past negative experiences is going to take the supernatural touch of
Jesus Christ. It was Satan working in the past, through people, often good
people who had no idea they were causing such devastation, to bring the evil on
us in the first place. The effects can’t be taken care of completely and
thoroughly without the supernatural help of the one who “came to destroy the
works of the devil” (1 John 3:8).
Only Jesus can get to the
root of any problem. He’s alive now and real and still doing the same things He
did when He was in the flesh on earth: honing in on the sources of our
anxieties, fears, hatreds, etc., exposing them for what they really are and
giving us the clear deliverance we so desperately need. He said, “Every plant,
which my heavenly Father hath not planted, shall be rooted up” (Matt. 15:13).
When the word “shall” is used, it is absolute, in contrast to the word “will,”
which is less emphatic.
A great example of the type
of freedom Jesus came to bring is in John 4. Jesus came to a well and asked the
woman there for a drink. She asked him why He was talking to her since she was
a Samaritan and Jews weren’t supposed to have dealings with Samaritans.
He totally ignored her
question. He came with deliverance for everyone. It didn’t matter if she was Jew
or Samaritan. Everyone has hidden hurts. He didn’t care what she thought of
herself or the boundaries she’d set up to guard herself. He was there to set
her free.
He told her that instead of
her giving Him a cup of physical water, he could give her a different kind of
water that would change her life. She
was hesitant and replied: “The well is deep,” and she wasn’t talking about the
physical well.
Jesus had the power to go
into that deep well of her soul, uproot the source of the problem and give her
complete and lasting freedom. Psalm 42:7 tells us: “Deep calleth unto deep.” There is
nothing deeper than the insight, understanding and love of God through Jesus
Christ.
As it turned out, the woman
was broken. Her self-worth was about as low as it can get. She had gone from
man to man looking for true love, but something was wrong. She couldn’t find
what she was looking for, no matter what she did. How many people are stuck in
that trap?
Jesus explained to her what
was happening with her. He uprooted the cause and He showed her what true love
was. She received it. I don’t know how long it took, but she was so excited
about being free of her bondage to the past that she ran out to tell the men of
the city and they came out to see.
Jesus ministered to them
for two more days and they had the same types of things happen to them. “And
they told the woman, ‘Now we no longer believe (trust, have faith) just because
of what you said; for we have heard Him ourselves [personally], and we know
that He truly is the Savior of the world, the Christ’” (John 4:42 AMP). Why did they say “savior?” Because they were saved—rescued—from the
effects of whatever past life-changing negative experiences were still playing
havoc in their lives too.
Jesus is real, alive now and
able to work in many different ways to get to the bottom of our wells, or to
the deepest sources of hurt in us. He is the answer to getting rid of them once
and for all.
I learned that I could ask
Jesus to go back with me to the incident with my dad in the tent. Time exists
here on earth, but there is no time with the Lord, so He could show me in the
Spirit exactly what was happening back then. I needed to see it through the
eyes of the Lord Jesus. And He showed me the truth:
My dad’s angry words had
nothing to do with me. Lashing out in anger was a defense he learned as a child
when he was so often accused of being wrong. It was an automatic trigger
reaction. When he opened the tent flap without asking, he did something wrong.
When I called him on it, he lashed out at me just like he always did when he
was accused of being wrong. I finally understood and I could let go of my own
hurt and anger. I was totally set free. My wound couldn’t be opened anymore. It
instantly became like a scar—a reminder, but without the attached emotions of
the opened wound.
This worked for me; it’s
worked for many others and it can work for you too.
I understand that some
people won’t be able to take the Lord back to the incident because they’re
angry with Him for allowing it in the first place. I have adult friends who
have not yet forgiven God for things in the past. It’s more common than you
might think—secretly blaming God for abandoning them in the past and not
answering their childhood prayers.
But we have to forgive God
too, even though it wasn’t really His fault. Whether or not we understand it, we
still have to just do it, to release our minds and hearts from all unforgiveness.
Do it first, then get the understanding.
How to accomplish these
feats starts with a decision to be willing to learn. Jesus takes our
willingness and leads us to complete freedom.
I pray that if you are a
person looking to be free from past wounds that are still popping up in your
life, let the Lord guide you in going back to just one significant incident
that hurt you and let Jesus show it to you through His eyes. We don’t need to
let those old wounds be ripped open repeatedly in our lives, but to be healed
once and for all and never hurt us again.
Love, Carolyn
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